Finally ,

Maa , there is a lot more I want to say . A LOT MORE . Not just about friends , studies or wtv crap you concerned . There's a lot more little things that you NEVER care . Little things that hurt me , little things that made me like this , little things that could lead me to end up this pathetic life ! When it comes to me , I'm the stupid one , I'm the rude one , I'm the bad one , I'm the one to be blame . I'm the one that you ignored , I'm the one that gets the blame , and when I ignored what you're doing to me and my friends were there through my rise and fall , you suddenly wanna be mad at me ! WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO DO WITH ME MAA ?! I may can accept the fact that you don't allow me to be out of the house like a damned prisoner , but saying all my friends are the bad influences to me , YOU ARE WRONG ! They're the ones who been there through my rise and fall , they're the ones who catch my tears whenever they fall , they're the ones that made me laugh even though I'm in tears , they're the reason I survived . I'm not saying you didn't do the things they did , but they were there when you hated me the most . Yes , some of them went away , but a few of them stayed with me MAA ! THEY ARE ALL I GOT !